- Devote. Cherish. Appreciate -

 Back to posting here again :) Soo basically I've been wanting to put braces since secondary school days but didn't have the courage to because first of all I didn't have the money and second of all I didn't want to feel the pain hahaha. Now, given that I have some income, I went ahead to have consultation. Basically I was rejected by one dentist because it seems that my case was a pretty complicated one. I wanted to consult for Invisalign ones cause they look much more cooler but damn it was way too costly soo nope.  I went to the first clinic and they examine my teeth in shock! He mentioned that I had severe overcrowding and also hypodontia (too many teeth grow in my mouth) I basically had one in my lower jaw and another one hidden beneath my gum so yeahh... a monster.. so since my first consultation was an Invisalign, he went through with me a lot of details such as what I have to do, how long to have the clear plastics in my mouth, etc, however one thing that he men

Focus on your happiness, learn to self care, only then you will be able to appreciate  Cherish, always cherish every single moment with your loved ones, you won’t know what’s gonna happen next, don’t regret People do much more than you think they do, do not assume, people might be going through a difficult times just that you are not aware of  Those are some of the takeaways that I had when I took the wrong move. I felt so broken and torn after that... even until now... I guess I acted that way was because I didn’t want others to judge... I was so torn... but I get it now... it ain’t matter how people judge you, what matters is that it came from within.... I went back because I was worried, because I was scared, and because I was mad and angry for my actions that I did...  one very last thing.... you don’t have to care what the other judge or think... I’m slowly and trying to overcome this part... I hope I’ll learn and get over it.... I hope and pray that everything goes well tomorrow.

Some things can be explained, some things can't be explained... well I guess this is where I come here to reflect on how I feel to seek for any advices if there are any? I did a lot of self reflections recently, be it good or bad, be it for personal or for work.. lots of things also happened for the past few months, some good, some not so. But we make the decision on how we want to see things, we decide how we want to feel, except for some where we couldn't control... Let me just mentioned some things that went well and I was happy of for the past few months: My sister has finally cleared all her modules!! I'm really proud of her! Studying is not her forte but she has put in a lot of hardwork and I'm really very happy for her. I can't wait for her to start working soon. Hopefully she's able to find a job with a decent pay My body percentage fat decreased by 4% as compared to last year which I'm really happy about BUT my weight increased which kinds of feels

It's been a long time... Reasons for me coming back to blog was because a lot of emotions piled up... I just lost my beloved grandma on the 3 Feb 2020, it came as a sudden shock to me.. she was hospitalized on the 17 Feb and discharged on the 24 Feb.. I visited her in the hospital everyday, asked her if she remembers my name and I would so happy that she remembers and said my name correctly. I was happy that she was able to respond to some of the questions that I asked her.. we were also able to celebrate the Chinese New Year together with my grandma.. since then I do notice that she's not too responsive to me... that made me sad... I hold on to her hands, told her who I am hoping that she will call my name again. Every single visit become more heartbreaking for me... 2 Feb was the last time that I saw my grandma... she was significantly weaker.. which brought me to tears... 3 Feb, I received messages from my sister saying that she's not in the good condition according