- Devote. Cherish. Appreciate -

Went to visit my late grandma... it was a tough... holding back all the tears... my sister become talkative during that moment and I knew that something was not right... tears streamed down from her eyes... shortly after I did the same while mummy was praying... It became uncontrollable when my mum told me to tell 婆婆 that I'll be overseas studying for the next semester... I won't be there for 清明 for the upcoming year to visit her... Couldn't sleep well last night... got out of bed with a terrible headache and was extremely tired.... been thinking a lot, crying in bed a lot, trying to get things all sorted out, thinking back if I had made the right choices, reached my breaking point and starting tearing... I was hit by the sadness yet again a few days ago when I was out with my parents on the train. Mum kept asking me some questions and I answered them without looking at her causing I was hurting badly on the inside and tears start to welled up... when I turned to look at

Terrible... Guilty.... got my mum injured a few days back when I lost balance and she fall off the bicycle... the felling is just terrible.... unable to have a peaceful sleep since then... I just hope that she recovers soon... 都是我的错!不孝顺的女儿...

Woke up early today for breakfast treat by our FYP Mentor. Thought that we are going for a simple breakfast at Toast box or MacDonald but it turned out to be at Straits Cafe located at the Rendezvous Hotel. I was speechless.. Talked a lot and these words came across my mind during the conversation... Devote, Cherish and Treasure Devote more time to what's important  Cherish and treasure whatever now, before it's gone.... Easier said than done....I got a little teary during the conversation and manage to overcome it... Brought my mum out in the afternoon to the polyclinic to get her medication, unfortunately for some strange reasons she was not able to purchase it over the counter anymore... She has to make appointment with another nurse first... Flustered, I called daddy and told him about it, he made a trip down from his work and argue with the person in charge... :( Felt so useless back then that I was not able to help... but of course we did purchase the medicine w

Dad received a call in the middle of the night, "grandpa is bleeding profusely, call for the ambulance!" dad made a trip down and got back at about 2am to get some sleep before he goes for work, waited for the whole day on which ward,  but the hospital didn't get back... dad called the hospital, "he can be discharged now" went down to get grandpa back from hospital... "我跌倒撞到鼻子， 脚没有力了" I just hope that everything turns out fine... I can't deal with another round of break down... it's so hard to put on the pretentious face of happiness when I'm all mixed up on the inside...

Red eyes, filled with tears... first time I saw her cry, that scene just breaks me on the inside.....