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This week wasn't good at all... In fact it was the worst one ever... went to met up with my career counselor... I didn't know what I want to do once I've graduated... finding a job is definitely hard for me given that I'm not able to meet ALL of the company requirements... career counselor also mentioned that given my resume, I wasn't able to find any jobs out there.... it was very harsh to hear that... I was nearly on the verge of tears but I kept holding it in throughout and stayed strong... did not let any drop of tear roll down my face.... just pretended to sniffle a little here and there, putting on a fake smile... after the meeting, I was really depressed given by that fact... swallowing my own tears was really very tough... especially when you had to hide from it all, putting on a pretence... the pain is real... hurts like mad... but that's life right? live in your own misery... you dug your own grave you have to live with it... :'( been holding for

Ups and Down... hated that feeling a lot.... especially when it's down... just didn't want to do anything... just want to stay at home and lay on my bed... Forced myself to go to school despite how much I hate it... went a few times to the washroom to clear up some tears before I went for classes... feeling is just very bad... last few weeks was bad... some days are just smooth whereas some are just down the drain... I don't know how to explain it in detailed here... it's just a very bad feeling you get... I just hope things just goes well... things are starting to get more hectic now... :'(