- Devote. Cherish. Appreciate -

I had been through a lot of emotions recently and most of them are very upsetting... To date, I'm still very confused and lost, I don't even have any directions in anything anymore..  I just feel like a lost child, abandoned, neglected... I just wished that all these did not happen and everything goes according to plan like it was before, given the circumstances now, it's hard for me to do that... it's just hurts me and pains me a lot. I do not know what to do to make me feel better. I feel as though I have lost everything... I want a hug, I want to be at the sea now badly.... it just seems to me that everything to me is falling apart and breaking down into pieces... this feeling is just bad...I hate to be alone like this.... I don't know what to do.......

The same feeling will still be there no matter how much you denied... I'm just very confused and lost now...

Sacrifice so much, did so much, will they even appreciate it? Is it even worth it?

Sometimes I wonder whether what I've done is right... lots of things happened recently and because of that, my closest friend don't talk to each other. It sucks for me to just sit there and do nothing... I can only provide them with a listening ear...telling them to communicate with each other cause inside me is saying that there are some misunderstanding between A and B... I know it's hard, it takes time that is why I left them like that for a few days until I broke up I brought the two of them face to face and "force" them to communicate, tear up and walk away, it's hurts me to do this cause A does not want to see B, does not wants to communicate with but B wants to sees A and has no idea what is going on... I'm tired seeing them like that, it hurts me on the inside and by a lot and to not be able to help? that just makes thing worst. Bringing them together to communicate, is that even the right decision I make? Does it makes thing awkward? Does it clear