19th Feb 2017 was a very tough day.... had to fly off to Seoul for exchange in the middle of the night... Went to visit my grandparents in the early morning, hoping to tell my grandpa that I'm going off for exchange and will only be back in the end of July, however I was not able to do that because it was as if I was signaling him something bad... Grandpa has been having a lot of weird conversation with my mum when I was not around and that made me very frightened.... Grandpa was able to recognize me when I got there and that made me happy for a moment. Moments later, he looked at the clock and mentioned that it's 9 o'clock now and it's very early, it was actually 11:45 he read it the other way round. When I was about to leave, grandpa asked me if today was a Tuesday, I replied no and mentioned that it was a Sunday... that made me quite worried... Mom told me about the questions that Grandpa had asked her, that got me more worried... I wasn't able to leave just like that... it was really a very tough and hard time for me.... hoping and praying that nothing will happen.... when I got to the airport, it was bad... started tearing when my parents were around so I had to make frequent trips to the washroom... didn't want to take any pictures because I know that I don't belong there and I'll spoil the picture either way..... Tried to be happy but failed.... tear a few times in the plane, it was one of the terrible ride.... couldn't sleep well at all... eyes started to hurt again as usual... it's just so hard for a single person to take it all in....

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