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Okay initially I was looking forward for Christmas but a few days before Christmas, I was down with a sore throat. That's sooooo not cool. Christmas was meant for me to have fun and enjoy myself but to have trouble swallowing my food even my saliva, it was terrible. I have not recovered since. The day after Christmas was my parents anniversary and I had to enjoy delicious food with my sore throat. Could anyone tell me how am I suppose to enjoy the food when I don't even have a "good" throat? That feeling just sucks! I'm so sorry for being mean but it's just that I want to recover quickly! I hope that I could recover before the new year. PLEASE PLEASE I WANT TO GET WELL SO BADLY!!!!!

Went shopping with my friend to get a gift for tomorrow gift exchange at the chalet. I bought 2 cans of biscuit which cost me about about 6+. I realise that I do not know how to wrap so I get my mum to help then my dad came in and help hence it was like my whole family came in to help wrap the present. Well... I did help out by providing the tape to them. =D The end product is this. Haha

Yup! That's the movie that I watched with my sister today after school at AMK hub. The reasons that I'm watching this movie was because I've watch the other twilight movies and I wanted to know what will happen in the end. Well... the movie was sort of scary to me. It kinda shock me. There's lots of blood and bed scene involve. The last part of the movie scared the hell out of me. They zoom in to Bella's eyes that were closed then suddently, there's music "boom" and her red coloured eyes opened. She become a vampire. Then it's the end of the movie. Everybody then left the movie theatre quickly but they did not realise that them movie have not ended yet, there's more. Anyway, I felt that the movie was not too bad. Err..Average I guess. After the movie, my sister and I went to Zone X to play a few games then went to search for some wrapping papers but did not manage to find some cheap ones so we head home. Haha. I had a fun and enjoyable time wit...

Okay basically I would be posting songs that I like.

Just had my Econs ICA 1 this afternoon and I completely flung it. My mind went blank. Gosh! I hope that I can do well in that paper. As mention that I was sick a few days ago, my younger sister was sick today and my mum bought her to visit the doctor and her voice now is so.... man.... Her voice does not sound like her usual self because she is having a sore throat. Hope she gets well soon =D I also do hope that my flu and cough would go away as soon as possible. It's just so irritating to study and revise my work when I kept coughing and using the tissue. Oh ya forgot to mention, my Econs tutorial teacher was so cute. At the end of the lessons, she wishes us Merry Christmas and Happy New Year then the whole class start laughing. Haha. But it's good that she wishes us because the next time we are going to see her is next year. Time flies.. When I was on the way home today I met Veronica. She asked whether I'm going to the class chalet. Well... I have not respond to the face...

Last week Friday I had Capital Market and Financial Instrument Quiz 1 and I completely ruined the paper. For no reason, I got sick in the afternoon when I was in school. I was down with a bad flu. I have to consistently use the tissue paper and also borrow from the others. I feel so bad. Man, I just hope that I can at least pass the quiz. I hope I won't end up in the bottom. I mean.. let's face it. The calculation question, I completely ruined it. Answers completely different from my friends. 10 marks GONE! Man! 10% of my marks GONE! 10 % do you even know how much it means to me?!! I really have to buck up if I want to do well. I can't just say and forget about it I need to put that to action. I need to do what I say. I can't let my parents down. I went to see a doctor today and I hope that I get better soon. My grandfather went back home because the maid has arrive and is now currently staying with him. Next week is a disaster. Tuesday - Communication Skills Presentati...

Many weeks ago, I told my sister to use my roll on gel for pimples when I notice that she had some pimples on her forehead. After a few weeks, she told me that the roll on gel that I bought was very useful because it manage to 淡化 her scars. She pointed to the scars on her feet. I screamed at her. The roll on gel was meant for the face not for the feet! How could she use it on her feet?! That's disgusting!! Anyway she told me that she did clean it after using it. Or else I would scream at the top of my voice. Hahas. School today was normal. Nothing special. School ends at 1pm today, I was so happy hahas. Actually I was looking forward to this day because I get to buy the sausage and keropok from the night market at Ang Mo Kio near the Ang Mo Kio Station. I know that it's fattening but I can't resist my temptation. I bought 4 sausages. 1 for me the rest for my family who are at home. 公公 was at home but he said he don't want to eat it so I saved it for his dinner. Hahas. N...

On Wednesday, I am supposed to end school at 1pm but because last week we missed our lecture so we had to make up and I end up leaving the school at 4 pus. It was Elementary Statistics lecture that we missed and every time we had his lecturer, I felt kind of weird in the lecturer hall. He would laugh at his own jokes which we think that the jokes are lame and some started laughing too. Just this Wednesday when he was teaching Binomial Probability, he was speaking too fast that he had tongue tied, hence, he mispronounce the word "five" to the F word. The class actually did not heard it , it was when a small group of students who started laughing then the lecturer himself admit that he speaks too fast and said the wrong thing. He stared laughing too. Then not long after he became serious, after 30 minutes or so, the lecturer mispronounce the word "five" to the F word again but this time the whole class heard it and all started laughing even the lecturer himself. Ha-ha...

Okay next week I am going to be very extremely busy. I have a role play on Tuesday and the scripts that the narrator sent me was not very clear. I'm worried for that. Secondly, on Wednesday I have Object Orientated Programming Quiz 1 and I have yet to study. Following which, I have a formal presentation on Thursday on the project proposal, it's not done yet and now I am worried sick. I don't know what to do. Here are some of schedule: Week 7 - Capital Market and Financial Instrument Quiz 1 Week 8 - Object Orientated Programming Quiz 2 & Econs ICA 1 Week 13 - Capital Market and Financial Instrument Quiz 2 Week 14 - Object Orientated Programming Practical test, Econs ICA 2 and Elementary Statistic written test 2 plus all the other projects!!!! I'm going crazy!!! I just hope that I can manage these things well.

Last month I bought McDonalds for my grandpa as lunch and I've got an DENiZEN voucher! Today I went down to novena to claim my the voucher. I then realize that the things there are not cheap my mum allow me to buy a jeans provided that I keep that jeans until new year. Which means that I only get to wear the jeans when it's lunar new year. You'll be wondering how much was that jeans right? Well it was $79.90 after the voucher it was $49.90. It is very expensive!!!! But anyway my mum allow me to buy it because I have the voucher. Oh ya my grandpa is now staying with us for now as my dad was worried about grandpa staying alone in the house. Now he is staying with us =) anyway yesterday I dreamt about my computing mathematics test today I remembered that it was very difficult. Today I took the test and it was very difficult I hope that I would be able to at least score well. Sorry about my bad organization of my story today. Haha. I did not organize my story well , what pops u...

My grandmother was hospitalised again. Yesterday when I was at my 婆婆 house, my dad received a call from 奶奶 saying that grandpa doesn’t have enough strength to carry her up to bring her to the toilet so my dad and I rush down to their place and help them. When we reach there, grandpa was there trying to lift her up but was unable to hence me and my dad help. When we lift her up she was shivering I have no idea why. After several attempts, we managed to lift her up but she did not even move an inch. She was shivering the whole time when my dad told her to move her legs so that she could use the toilet. My dad was angry at that time and he was sort of scolding her. I told my dad to give her some time to move but she did not. Therefore my dad suggests that she wears pampers. So we put her in the wheelchair and wheel her back to her room. We have to lift her up to her bed but because of her fracture in her backbone due to osteoporosis we have to be very careful. However, when we lift her up...

2ND November 2011, Wednesday My grandmother was discharged from hospital today and my dad asked me to go down to their house and bring down the wheelchair upon my dad's call. I reach my grandparent house at about 2 plus and I bought McDonald's for my grandfather to eat but he mentioned that he had already taken his lunch so I left his lunch there. Then after I had my lunch I went to do my homework and finished it at about 1-2 hours later. After that I waited for my dad's call for 4 hours. At about 7 plus my dad called and I brought the wheelchair down. Then when my grandmother got back home, my dad had to explain the instruction about the medicine to her. There are tons of medicine for her to take so she had to remember them correctly. My dad had to repeat a few times before she gets it. While my dad was explaining my grandfather told me that 奶奶老了病了要吃很多药. On my way home, my dad told me that he was fortunate because ever since he studied part-time in the poly, there are frie...

I went to school at 8.30 today and reach school at about 9.15am I was warm at that time so I decided to buy a packet of green tea from the machine. When the packet of drinks came out from the machine, I realised that it did not have a straw attached to it so I search the machine again and I did not find any straws. Well... what will you do when you came to this situation? 1) Throw away the packet of drinks 2)Take a straw from somewhere 3)Find some place where other will not able to notice you drinking without a straw. My answer was 3, find a place where other will not be able to notice you drinking without a straw. You will be wondering where was the place right well... it was actually the toilet. Gross right? I bought a packet of ice cold green tea and savour it in the toilet. I went inside one cubicle poke the packet of drinks with my nails and savour it. I was like so desperate to drink that packet of ice cold green tea that I have to end up in the toilet and drink it. I felt so stu...

One week of sem 2 passed and now I am really really really tired. School ends at 6pm for Monday and Tuesday. I get to go back home early on Wednesday and Thursday. Friday was expectational because I was suppose to end school on 6pm but instead it was 1pm today because there was no tutorial and the remaining last two periods was OOPJ consultation period. I have to get up early on Thursday because lessons starts at 8am. My project are getting thorougher and so are my homework. Now I've got to read the financial section of the newspaper to know exactly how Singapore is doing in the finance industry. Recently my grandmother has been admitted in the hospital because she experience sharp pain in her backbone. I hope that she recovers soon. Oh ya my flu has also gone away :D. This week was a busy week I hope that I would be able to adapt to the new group members and work well with them.

Okay I'm officially sick. I am down with a running nose on Sunday and now I'm still having it. It's irritating because I dared not blow my nose in front of my classmate and because of this all my mucus got stuck in my nose in the end I have a headache and had to use my mouth to breathe. This is very awkward because I have to constantly open my mouth. The best thing is that today is the first day of Sem 2 and I got sick?! Anyway,a lot of things happen today. All my lectures gone crazy. They have been telling jokes to us but nobody seems to laugh at their jokes expect for themselves. Okay maybe I wasn't really concentrating because of my flu but nobody in the lecture theatre was laughing. Mind you it was a full house lecture theatre. It was like silence for a few seconds. Now that I am sick I should get some rest. Hopefully my flu would go away.

Yes! Shopping. I went out with my friend today because I had nothing better to do at home I am really bored at home. First we take a ride down to Farrer Park to shop at City Square Mall. We went there at about 11.30 reaching 12 and expect almost all the shops to be open but no. Only some shops are open. Most of the shops have not start their business for the day yet. After shopping there we went to Nex shopping mall. I didn't realise my dad was having lunch there when he text me at about 1 pm. Haha. I did not check my handphone during that time and when I saw his message it was about 3 plus. Anyway back to the story, ya we went shopping at Nex and fill up our empty stomach too. xD After shopping at nex we went back to Hougang Mall shop for a while and went home. It was really tiring. Now I realise that I get worn out very easily. I'm ageing you see. Oh ya I thought of having my fringe cut but the problem is I don't know what kind of style I want for my hair and I am afraid...

Yesterday I went for Cockroaches hunting in my house. Sounds gross? I actually did that with my family. We really search for Cockroaches in the kitchen and it's true that we manage to find some real big ones and on top of that I taught my younger sister science. You will be wondering about what right? It's about Cockroaches eggs. I show her some unhatched Cockroaches egg and some hatched Cockroaches egg. It was really digusting but anyway we manage to get rid of some haha. Today my dad actually wanted my sisters and I to stay at home while he goes to grandmother house but I insist on going out because I had nothing to do at home and so we did . First we head to Tiong Bahru then after lunch we head down to Clark Quay following which we walked from Clark Quay to the Fort Canning Park then we came to the Registry of Marriages which was near the Fort Canning Park (well actually after some dictance of walking or so). Took some photos there. After which we went to the Singapore Nat...

I was playing game when my dad came home. He bought dinner for us because this week we did not shop for groceries there he was saying why no one was helping him opening the door. Then at that time I ran up to the door to help him however when i brought the food inside the kitchen, he was still standing at the door trying to lock and unlock the doors with different keys. By then I was wondering why he needed so many spare keys for? After trying it out he passed to me one pair of the keys telling me that it's mine. YAY!!! Finally I've got the house keys! I'm official a young adult. I always envy those who got their house keys. I've thought that I would have to wait until I reached 21 to get the house keys. Haha. I'm so happy! =D I'm really bored at home although I did mention that I played games at home. I played the games several times and I'm kinda of sick of the game but anyway it's still fun though. I want to watch Movie! I want to watch Johnny English...

I listened to a lot of music on the radio but the problem is that I don't even know the song title. Just recently, I watch the show the x-factor and I heard the girl sang the song that I love it and the song title is impossible. It's a nice song. I actually have a question to ask. When you mention that you love the song does it means that you like the meaning of the song or you like the rhythm of the song or you just love the song? Well... for me is the last two option. Is it ridiculous? I hope not. Haha. Well... here is the song.

We went to fly kite with my uncle and her daughter . My uncle pick us up at our house void deck and we head off to the Marine Bay Sands area at the Marine Barrage. I love to ride in his car. His ride are very smooth. I had lots of fun there. Many people turn up for the night kite flying. The MC said that they wanted to break the record of the number of LED kite fly in the sky. It's very beautiful to see it in the night. It's like many of bright coloured stars. Unfortunately, my dad didn't notice the line attach to the kite was running out and there goes the beautiful kite. I did gave chase to catch the kite back but because I was too short and I can't reach high hence I loss the kite. It dropped onto the Marine Barrage reservoir lying there on the water. After the event we went to lao par sar to have our dinner. We had satay, noodles, fish , cockles and many more. Because my sister said the cockles don't have that kind of stinky smell, so I tried one but when I open...

I painted my nails a few weeks ago and now the paint is fading off. I painted my mails with a clear transparent paint as the base and I use the tip of the pen to do some small dots on my nails. Not covering the whole nails it's the part where the pink section of the nails separate from the white section from the nails. I hope you understand what I am trying to describe here. Anyway I did some dots there. Now what's left on my nails are some dots. Most of the dots came off. The funny thing is that I had only one dot left on ym left hand side baby finger. Talking about my nails, I just realise that one of my nail break this evening. Well... I decide not to cut it off until tomorrow. When tomorrow comes I will remove my nails paint and cut my nails. Hopefully my nails survive until tomorrow. Haha.

This is the first time I saw my dad buy this kind of shoes. Shoes with white base?! He bought this at Expo because there was a sale going on. He wouldn't but this kind of shoes because all his shoes have a black base moreover, my mum and I have the same thought which is that this kind of shoes was for those who are very fashionable. My dad did has his own fashion but not this type of white base shoes fashion. I guessed he changed his own style of fashion. Anyway, both my mum and I like this kind of shoes at first glance. I prefer shoes that have a white base. It looks nice. I've seen people wear it and it suits them beautifully but unfortunately, not for me. I don't look good in anything. Well, I guess I have to end my post here. Goodbye...

For the past weeks my younger sister have been having her lunch in school which was not supposed to be. Every time my sister had to stayed back for remedial lessons, my mum would pack food and bring down the lunch box for her so that she could have a proper lunch. Just last night I asked her if she had any friends to have sit and eat together she replied that most of the time she had to eat alone. I questioned her why she said that she has not much friends all her friends went to find other friends leaving her alone. I asked her during recess if she had any friends with her she mentioned that she only sat with her kindergartner friend which was in the same school but different class as her. My heart sank when she said that sometimes she had to sit alone in one table and eat. Just imagine it. It's quite sad to picture it. The reason why my sister have to have her lunch in school was because my eldest sister wanted to go for a swim and I agree with her so did my mum. Hence the last r...

I went to the swimming pool with my mum and sister again today. It's was raining most of the time today but there is sheltered swimming pool there so we are still able to play with the water. Surprisingly, the water level there in the sheltered pool was much higher than yesterday. My mum and sister agree with it too. Strange. Anyway. before we head down to the swimming pool, my sister and I watched a video for those who are learning to swim as beginners. After watching the video on learning how to swim, now I am able to swim a short distance but still I am afraid of swimming long distances. Anyway, I am so happy! ^^ I finally learn how to float and swim. All thanks to the video I watched in YouTube. I was very tired when I got home. Well... my dad and my younger sister did not know anything about us going to the swimming pool. Haha. Let's just keep it a secret.

My mum, eldest sister and I went to the swimming pool today not to swim but to play with the water. I realise that, me, growing fat can't possibly look good in swimming costume. All of my excess fats are buldging out. Gosh! I know that I sould not be writing about this because it's seems gross. Well...I'm not overweight but recently I have gain weight and I am trying to lose weight. All I can say is that gaining weight is easy but losing weight is difficult. I can't fit into most of my clothes anymore. Now, this sounds very bad because it simply means that I grew fat by probably 2 sizes. That's extremely bad! How I wish I could at least lose some weight. Anyway, I had lots of fun playing at the pool. Seeing those children swim so well, I wish I could swim like them but I can't as mention I am too fat. I'll guess I have a new target and that's to lose some weight.

Recently, I've been watching the show Hello Baby SNSD and when I heard this song, I'm in love with it. I just love this songs so much. I don't know the reason why I loved this song so much. Haha. I'm so random :P Now, I've finished watching all the shows on the Internet I am not sure what to do next. Anyway, there isn't much for me to talk about. Here's the song below.

Went back to my secondary school with my school mates but did not manage to get to see the teachers because they left long ago before we arrived. Then we head down to Hougang Mall to have ... well... lunch ... we dine in a restaurant and on our way there, we saw a lot of our school mates there but we were too embarrassed to go forward to talk to them. In the restaurant, it was so expensive so I ordered ice-cream. Weird right? but anyway I've done it so nothing to be embarrassed of. After shopping at Hougang Mall, My friend and I went to Vivo City to shop. Some of the things have changed there and we managed to find some shops that meet our expectation. Things that are of reasonable price. Haha. After all the shopping, we went back to Hougang Mall and I accompany her for dinner then we head home. It was a very tiring day and now my leg is aching. I wonder if your leg is aching now? Haha. Hope to have another shopping really soon ya? :D

I don't know what happen but I can't really move my neck from left to right late last night and I think it was because of this, I had a slight fever becuase my head was aching. I felt as though I have strain my neck and it hurts a lot until now. Gosh! so many things happen to me. I have to go to school today for a remedial lessons on programming. Our programming lecturer said that this year paper was a little little little little bit difficult from the previous years. I thought to myself, the past years papers was quite difficult for me to handle and this year would be a little little little little bit difficult would mean very very very extremely difficult for me. I just hope that during the examination, there would be a laptop there so that I would be able to use the eclipse program to check for my errors. I really have to buck up. The past two papers.... well.... I hope for the best. Computing mathematics, I don't know how to do the matrix question and I don't even h...

This Friday night or should I say this Friday night? anyway I did not feel well on Friday night. I had diarrhoea and I don't know why. I ate the same thing as my sister and I got diarrhoea not only that I had a splitting headache. Imagine going to the toilet often when you are having a splitting headache. It's maddness. I really feel sick and uncomfortable but after a few hours, the diarrhoea stop then I had fever. Fever + splitting headache = dead . I thought that this would never stop because I am afraid that I might not be able to take my exams on the 31 August. I got better on Saturday but my stomach feels weird. It feels hot and I can't stand upright. Whenever I tried to, I feel like crouching down. It feels as though my stomach was turning. I still went out with my parents for lunch in the afternoon . I have to walk like an old lady ( to crouch down) however, I tried to walk normally to prevent my parents knowing about it. Fortunately, in the night, my condition got ...

I don't have to attend school this week because I'm having a study week. I have started studying and I am very worried for my Principle of Accounts. I hope that there is no Principles of accounts next semester. I'm struggling with it already. I've practised the past years papers but because there are no answers given to it, therefore I do not know if my answers are correct. I felt that I did not do much studying at home. I'm taking things way too easily. Today was the last episode of 同伊 and I don't understand what the show is about, it's kind of confusing, to me. Anyway, as I was saying I had to prepare for my studies so now that 同伊 is no longer showing on television, I can now focus on my studies (hope so). I hope that I will be able to do well...

I'm SOOOOO NOT looking forward to this Weekend I'm having a Presentation on Monday and I've not even prepare myself yet!

I bang into people two times. I was walking out from the MRT Station when I felt thirsty and wanted to but a drink so I kept looking to the left at the Guardian shop which was beside the Ticket Office. I didn't realise that there was a man was walking towards me at my right I think he was looking at some other direction too. Then we bang into each other. He apologise to me. Actually I should have apologise to him because I wasn't looking at where I was going. Next, when I reach the bus stop, I waited for the bus and then a school boy bang against my bag. He was walking backwards that's why he bang into me. He apologise. unlucky. Presentation!!! My group was the last to present!!!! This means that my group have to perform well to score well because each time a group presents their project, the lecturers would then raise the standard and expectation for the next group. Being arranged in the last group was disaster!!!! Now,knowing that my group was the last to present, everyon...

I had only one lecture today because the other lectures and tutorials have already ended last week. That means that I have to go to school today for one lecture which start at 1pm and end at 2.40pm(teacher dismissed early). Well ... I've said that I broke record because I did not even talk to any of my friends today. I never even open my mouth to speak anything. I don't know why I did not open my mouth to talk to anybody ,it feels weird though. Anyway,I am left with 7 days to my final presentation and I have not even complete the project yet. I'm freaking out right now. I just hope that I can manage to complete on time and do a good presentation. I don't want to fail this.

HAPPY!!! I went shopping with her today! Wake up at 8.30 in the morning and had breakfast then I waited for the time to fly as I'm meeting up with her at 1pm .Then, my dad ordered me to go to the coffee shop to buy lunch for the whole family. I was not very hungry then so I ordered chee kuah for myself. When I got back, my youngest sister went to play the movie The Karate Kid. I watched for a while and started to get myself ready for the meet up. My dad need to head down to Hougang Mall to update his bank book so he accompanies me to Hougang Station. Then, there is the big moment! I finally get to meet her!! We went shopping at Hougang Mall, then went to Nex Shopping Mall to shop and went back to Hougang Mall to shop again. We talked a lot on our way. It was fun  She saw many bags, shorts and shoes that tempted her to buy but in the end she did not buy them. She resists her temptation until December because only then she would be able to buy for the Chinese New Year. Haha. However...

I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 at The Cathay Gallery with my sister today and I really , truly enjoyed it. It's intense, amazing and awesome but I am really sad that this is would be the end of Harry Potter. This is the final part of Harry Potter. I will miss Harry Potter. It will forever be one of the best movie. I like the part where Harry Potter pretends to be dead and when the time is right, he fights with Voldermort. It was thrilling. "Let's finish the way we started together" "The boy who lives comes to die"

I just had HTML Practical test today and now I am very freaking angry with myself!!! I have done up the web page but in the end, when I ruin it, the whole documents changes and everything that I did corrupted!!! Darn it!!!!!!!!! 20%!!!! of my score went to the drain just like that!!!!!! What am I going to do ????!!!!! Damn freaking angry with myself!!!!! Stupid me!!!! 已经知道我所做的是正确的，我还是去给它添加更多的东西. ( 画蛇添足 ) AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Gonna focus on written test! Tomorrow getting back POA and Programming practical I think. I just hope to at least pass the POA test that's all. I don't ask for anything much. A pass would do. Same for Programming Practical.

School's escalator went crazy today! When I was going home after the school dismissal, I thought that the escalator was not working because there was a long queue behind the escalator. When I stepped on the escalator, it was almost not moving, it feels as though that it was about to break down but after a while, the escalator started to gain speed suddenly and it went very fast. Luckily I did not miss my footing or else I would fell down in the crowd, which is very embarrassing. I had POA test today.... I've calculated and I think that I wold not be able to pass this time round. It was so difficult! I had programming practical last Friday and it was also very difficult. Both papers GONE CASE! I am going to get punishments from dad...

I am excited because Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 is coming out and I am going to watch it on Cinema no matter what. However, I feel sad because this would means that it is the end of Harry Potter. "We were the Chosen one"

I've seen the trailer many times and I can't wait to watch it!! However, I am sad because this would be the end of Harry Potter Series. I am going to be very busy for the weeks ahead of me. I will be having a Programming Practical test this Friday. The following Monday I will be having POA ICA2, on the Wednesday Econs exams, Thursday will be HTML Practical test. The week after the next I will be having a HTML written test and Computing Mathematics Quiz 3. See how busy I am ?! How am I going to watch Happy Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 in Cinema?! I've got to start revising now...

I HELP YOU JUST BECAUE I DON'T WANT OUR FRIENDSHIP TO END. BUT WHEN I HELP YOU , YOU TAKE IT FOR GRANTED. I HELP YOU, YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT BUT I FEAR FOR WHAT'S COMING. DO YOU EVEN UNDERSTNAD HOW THAT FEELS LIKE?!! *&^%$#@!

I can't believe it! I've been taking single-decked buses for three consecutive days! I've normally took double-decked buses to school but now all single-decked buses. I hate it! I hate to squeeze with the other people. Anyway, my sister came back from Hong Kong today and my dad and I went to the airport to fetch her. I was very happy that she comes back because this means that everything would return to normal. Without my sister I think I would suffer quite a lot. As you can see my post today was very short as I'm very tired now and I need some sleep. So... Good Night!

My sister is going to Hong Kong tomorrow for semester trip. She will be staying there for 4 days and will be returning on Wednesday. This will be her first time taking an airplane. I hope that she won't feels any discomfort during the flight. Given her health condition, I did warn her about what to eat, what not to eat etc. Most importantly, I told her to take care of her health. I hope she have a pleasant journey. My whole family is going to the airport with her tomorrow and we have to wake up early. Take Care 大姐! 一路顺风 .

Assignments not completed yet! I went back to school on Thursday to discuss the project with my group member and it seems that we did not do a thing. All I was doing was to try to link from one of the web pages to another of the web pages. The project basically was to create a website using our knowledge that we have learnt from the HTML lectures. It sounds fun because you get to create a new website all on your own but it is difficult when what you said about the features that you want for the website is impossible to create it given the limited knowledge you have. And that's frustrating! We have already planned how our website will look like but it's impossible to make it the way we want it as we did not learn how to create it. Now, given an assignments on creating a new website to sell things that you want, it's DIFFICULT!!!! that's why I'm freaking out! I'm thinking of ways to improve the looks of my websites and hopefully I could get it done before the dead...

I've been lazy these few days. I actually wanted to complete my assignments last week but I was too lazy. Every afternoon I switched on my computer I would do for a few hours and then I would lose concentration because I was too tired to continue doing. I told myself to continue doing in the night but I want to watch TV and after waching it I was then too lazy to do my assignments. I felt thatmy life have changed after I stepped into poly life. I felt that I treat my parents wrongly. I would lose my temper often. I know that this is wrong I am trying to change my attitude roasted them. Recently bad things are happening to me. At first I felt down on the stair case last week and it was quite serious. I could not bend my knees because I had a huge blue black on my knee and the other one is on other leg. The bad news was I felt down the day before my camp. I signed up for it so i have to attend the one day camp I thought that I could wear long pants to cover up mu bruises that I have...

Went cycling with my family members today! It was awesome but tiring. I thought that it was going to rain in the late afternoon but nope, it did not because I pray for it not to rain today. Haha. I even sing the "Rain Rain Go Away " song silently in the bus and it works! no rain! It's been a long time since I started riding bicycle again. It was fun! exhilarating! "sigh" I didn't know that riding a bicycle could be so fun for me. When I was riding , I forgot all my troubles and it seems that I was free from anything but when it was time to return the bicycle, all my troubles came back and now I have to deal with projects and assignments. 5 PROJECTS to be completed!!! during the holiday! this is MADNESS!!! I hope I can finish it on time.

Went to Vivo City to watch Kung Fu Panda 2 3D with my eldest sister today. The movie was great! I like baby po! so cute! After watching the movie, we went shopping together and I saw my ex-classmate, Norman. I was entering the train going back from Harbour Front to Hougang when he text me and asked me if I am in the train. At first I don't know who the person was because I did not record down his number. Then he reveal his identity. I was shocked to see him. He changed a lot. We did chat via texting each other. Later after reaching Hougang, my sister and I went to meet my parents and younger sister for dinner and also to buy some things from the super market then we head home. I am currently doing one of my homework. I really want to clear all my projects by this week,( which I think is impossible), so that I can have the next week for holiday. I think I would stop now.... I'm tired! goodnight everybody!

Yes!!! at last! my holiday are here. Although it is just two short weeks, I am going to make it worth it. Talking about holiday I really have to buck up on some of my subject. Here are some review of my results. C math quiz 1 ( 10%) : 50/50 C math quiz 2 (20%): 22/30 ITFS quiz 1 (10%) : 15/20 ITFS quiz 2 (20%): unknown Programming quiz 1 (10%): 33.5/40 Programming quiz 2 (10%) : 19/30 HTML written test (15%): 35/40 HTML practical (20%): unknown POA ICA (15%): 18/30 FIYP: unknown As you can see, i really need to buck up on most of the subjects especially programming, POA and ITFS. After getting back my papers,I found out that I've made some silly mistakes. From the result you can tell that I hate POA the most. I really hate it in the first place because I've really have got no clue what the lecturer was talking about. But after I did some read up and do more tutorial question I cleared my doubts and I am starting to like it. For Programming quiz 2, I did not did much reading the...

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP!!!!!!!!! STRESSS!!!!

I am afraid. Now that I have completed my POA ICA 1, Programming Quiz , Computing Mathematics and HTML practical test, I have a feeling that I am going to fail them very badly and I really mean it. POA ICA 1, my answers are completely different form the rest which makes me even more worried. After completing the CMS for the Programming Quiz, I realised that I have made a HUGE mistakes. For Computing Mathematics, I got stuck at the first question for quite some time and did not manage to find out the answer, the subsequent question was fine but again, my answer was different from thr others who did the same papers as me. WORRIED! HTML practical, I can't seems to link the website together which is a very serious problem. AHHHH!!! All this quizzes, test and ICA are making me insane. I don't have time to watch TV, no time to play. All my time are taken up by homework and projects. Even if I have the time to go out ,which I did every Saturday, I would pester my parents to go home qu...

Yesterday when I was on my way home from school, I played games on my handphone. It was around 6 plus when I was dismissed from school and I have to take MRT then a bus to reach home. I was in bus 74 when I started playing my games then a tall man beside me was constantly looking at me playing the games. I caught him 3 times. When my game was over, I look straight to see if I have reached my stop and then I saw him turn his head to the front quickly. Haha. I know that my English is very poor but do try to picture this in your mind it's really very funny. I caught him 3 times. Haha. I had a Programming Written Test today and it was difficult. I don't know how to write the whole program out the input and the output. All I hope is to just pass it. Oh ya, today my friend was talking about SHINee new MV Replay in Japanese version. I went to view it and I fall in love with them, I think. Haha. But I will soon lost interest in them unless I keep track of them which I don't because...

Turn seventeen today! I'm getting older. Gosh! today quiz was very difficult, I don't even know how to draw out the output when they test us on codes.Now, I just hope to pass the quiz. I really hope to pass it as I studied the test two days ago. During break time, I didn't expect my class to sing a birthday song for me and they gave me presents. I was very touched! Thanks to my classmates who really make me smile. I can't stop smiling although it is very embarrassing. Haha. The best birthday ever! Even my secondary school friends wish me a Happy Birthday. Happy!!! But I can't relax because on Wednesday I have another test and Friday also. This week is a very busy week, full of quizzes and test. I hope that I can do well :D

Yes! I am super happy now! I can't believe it I scored full marks for my Computing Mathematics Quiz! I thought that I would not pass the paper because my workings were messy. I'm just glad that I did well. However, unfortunately, I did badly for the IT for Financial Services quiz. I scored 15/20 which I heard that it was the lowest in class. I was too nervous at that time and my mind went blank when I received the quiz paper. I thought to myself that at least I pass. Anyway, I've got over it. I am going to try my best for the next coming quiz and ICA and exams. There have been a lot of things happening lately and I got very tense up and emotional. I was so emotionally that I have an urge to scold vulgarities. Every time I've lighten a load, another one comes in. It's never ending. I just hope to do well for all the quizzes, test, ICAs and exams. That's all I am expecting of myself.

My sister have finally recovered after all the vomiting, coughing etc. She had removed her stiches and now there is three holds on her right hand in her upper arm. She said that the tube that was inserted in her arm was 35cm long! I was totally disgusted by it although I was not present when she was removing her stiches. And yes, after about one month of recuprating, my sister is finally going back to school tomorrow. She has a lot of catch-up to do especially her project. Not to mention, I am also having trouble with my projects and quizzes and practical. All these make me want to quit! But I am not going to give up so easily now, I am going to strive! I am going to aim and get what I want. I have started reading up on Principle of Accounts and I sort of understand it. Now, my worst fear! I don't know about the Programming! All I know that during practical was just to copy from the notes and type out what it's written there, but now they just throw us a question and want us to...

I am trying to like the way that my life is right now. Yes, I did try to be less stressful and I am glad that my group member are starting to coporate. I do not blame them for not corporating the last few weeks because as a leader,I did not tell specifically what are they suppose to do so the fault is mine. Blame it on the leader. Alright, talking about school well I am starting to hate Principals of Account. During the lecture I really have no idea what the lecturer is trying to teach. I did tried to go back and do some read up but it was useless. I only have an rough idea of what she is teaching but not very detailed. I hope that this would help me to at least pass this exam? Well, just yesterday, I had my first quiz and I regretted not revising the CMS because some of the question came from there. Although I did attempt the question on the CMS but that was a few weeks ago I can hardly remember anything. I hope that I can pass it. Today, I had my Computing Mathematics quiz 1 it was a...

Happy Birthday Mummy!

I didn't get my participation mark today and I was being called out at the end of the class. Embarrassing. I wanted to participated but I was too afraid to open my mouth. You must be wondering why afraid? The reason is I was sitting in the first row which was very close to the teacher. I know I am not suppose to give excuses because in poly you have to clear your doubts before moving on to the next chapter. Well I did for some. Didn't get my participation marks means that my GPA will be affected. I hope this would not happen again. I want to get my marks next time, I don't want it to waste it just like that. Irritating Until now, for all I know is that POLY LIFE SUCKS! HATE IT! AHHHH!

My sister is finally discharge from the hospital yesterday. I feel so happy for her. Although she is discharge , she still has to go down to the hospital daily for her OPAT. When she was admitted in the hospital, the doctors found out that one of her heart valve is weak, the opening and closing of it was then affected, and hence, the doctor inserted a tube in one of her vein that leads to the heart on her right hand. She's gone through a painful experience, she even has two stiches. She can't really move her right hand much as she is afraid of the pain and also afraid that the tube might come out and when that happens, she will have to rush to the hospital. I do really hope that she can get well real soon. School really sucks for me these days. I don't know why, but I feel very emotional. Sometimes I just let it out by crying. I felt that I am feeling even more pressurised. Project works, group not very cooperative expect for a few. I am afraid that they will not do their r...

Went out with my secondary school friends to have lunch and watch movie. We had Long John Silver for lunch and after our lunch, we went to the cinema to buy tickets for the movie that we are watching. At first I wanted to watch Rio which is a cartoon movie. However, my friends wanted to watch Scream 4 instead. They mention that it is not a horror movie but when the movie start, it's seems scary, it's bloody and violent. I was hiding behind my jacket the whole time. It feels as though I am wasting my money watching this movie. Overall, the movie was nice just that it was not suitable for me. I hate to watch horror movie. After the movie, I was shivering because I was scared and cold but after walking around I feels much better then we went shopping and after that I went to the hospital to visit my sister. My sister is getting better and I feel happy for her. I hope she gets even better and come home soon.

My sister seems to be getting better. She looks more energetic now. I am so happy. However, her left hand is covered with bruises because the doctors took four blood tests from her. There are many of them not just one. It looks very painful. On the right hand, it looks swollen because of the drip. Oh, my sister can finally have a proper dinner today, because she went for a CT scan to scan her stomach and hence, she was allowed to eat but the previous days, she was not allowed to eat but allowed to have a cup of Milo only. I'm glad that she is feeling much better than before. However, we still don't know what caused her to be so sick previously...

My eldest sister is still hospitalized and we don't know what happen to her. The doctors can't detect anything yet. My sister is still under observation. She was in there for the past three days, getting poke by needles every time it's just hurts me to see that. Right hand on drip, left hand got poke at least three times for blood tests. THREE TIMES!!!! Her arm is covered with plaster. Her fever would not even go down. It's like a roller coaster ride,high and low. When will this stop? I hope that she gets well really soon. I'll pray hard.

My eldest sister was admitted to the hospital yesterday night as she kept vomiting and complained of stomach pain. I am seriously worried for her. I went to see her today and she is still very weak and also in pain as she was on drip.I hope that she can really get well soon. I don't wish to see her in pain. Get Well Soon Sister. Jia You!!!

My eldest sister has not recovered from her sickness yet. She has already visited 3 doctors. She is having cough and fever but the fever would not subside. In the midnight, she just keeps vomiting. My mum sent her to the hospital today at 6am lucky she was not hospitalized but now her symptom start coming back now. She starts to feel dizzy, cold and even vomit. I really hope she get well soon. Seeing her in this state just makes me worried.

Today was the last day of the orientation and I am soo happy. Haha. I did make a lot of friends and even talk to them and also have their phone numbers. Most of the time today was just playing games and rehearsing for the finale performance today. Lucky I was not chosen if not I would have to shout the class cheer at the stage which is quite embarrassing. Oh ya the lunch today was fantastic, we had Mcdonals and after that we had Ben and Jerry ice cream which was quite delicious. The school also give us goodie bag and T-shirt. Overall the past few days was quite okay. When I got back and had my dinner, I played pretend cooking with my younger sister which I quite enjoyed it. Childish me. Haha. School gonna start soon I hope that everything goes well.

I am seriously very tired, I can barely open my eyes. During today orientation, most of the time were just touring around the school. In the morning, there were talks from our own mentor and lectures. After hearing the talks, I got very frightened about it. I am afraid that I might not do well for the course. On top of that there are a lot of things I need to know and there are also a lot of singing in of the mails to check the time table and assignments etc. I was frightened by all these. Even though the lecturer was kind and friendly, I still feels that it will be hard for the next three years in my polytechnic life. After the talks was just games after games. Since tomorrow is my last day of orientation, the OGL said that there would be a finale where each groups would have to come up with a cheer and one of them would have to be dressed up as a cartoon character on that day. I actually look forward to tomorrow. The dress code for tomorrow is T-shirt and long pants and I was so happ...

I just got back from my orientation and I am very exhausted. Most of the time was sitting down in the floor. The lecturer said that we are supposed to be sitting in the auditorium but because it is under renovation so we are all sat in the sports hall. Just imagine sitting in the sport hall for hours listening to talks after talks. It is very tiring. Not to mention, the food was horrible, I don't know what flavour was the rice it was yellow in colour and has a very weird taste. However, I am glad that I am in the same course and class as Jia Min. At least I have someone to talk to you see. Talking about this, my class was the one that did not make much noise. We were one of the quite groups. The team leader tried to engage us but it did not work. Then we started to play a game where you have to state your name then you have to repeat what the person name is and then follow by lyour name. This gets very tricky because the last person would have to recite all the person name and I as...

Well... as the title suggests I am really very nervous and scared now for my orientation tomorrow. I am afraid that I won't be able to make new friends. I hate it when I have to adapt to the new environment again. I just don't like it. I know nuts about the course. What if they ask me why I chose this course, how am I going to answer for it? I am very extremely afraid now. I've been telling myself to stay calm, be normal but it only works for a while after which I become nervous again. It's like never ending. Oh gosh! I just hope that it will turn out well. P.S I will be wearing pink t-shirt and long pants.

I went out with LiQin today to shop for shorts and shirts. I was very excited because it's been a long time since we meet up and go out together. We agreed to meet at 11.45 but because my sister have not recovered from her cough yet so my mum needs to bring her to visit another doctor hence, I have to leave the house early to meet up with LiQin. We head down to Kovan first and then to Serangoon, NEX. At Kovan, we went to This fashion. I like going to This Fashion because it just makes me happy to see so many clothes we spent about 30 minutes there searching for pants. I don't know why but the longer I stayed in there it makes me happy. Maybe I am insane! Haha. After all the shopping we head down to NEX to have out lunch and continue to shop more. While we were shopping, we saw Li Kai, I was very amazed. The last time I saw her was when we were colleting our results. We chat for a while then bid goodbye with her. We went in to many of the shops, almost all of the shop to see and...

I watched Harry Potter movie again. This is my fourth time watching it. I went to school with one of my friend to collect the testimonial and also the 'O' level certificate. I have not went back to my secondary school since I collected my 'O' level results. We still talk a lot though. I thought that it would be embarrassed for me to meet up with her but it turned out fine. The school has changed a little. Well... I would say it became more organize and quite clean. I really have nothing more to blog about for now. It's just that the main thing for today is meeting up with my friend and getting the testimonial with one of my friend the best friend I ever had even though I disturbed her quite often. Talking about this, it brings me back to my secondary school days which is very complicated. Orientation are coming and I have got to make new friends if not I will suffer in the future. I just hope that I will be able to do well. By the way, it's April fool day today ...

It's just another ordinary day today. I watched the legend of the guardians the owls of ga'hoole in the morning because I've got nothing better to do. In the afternoon, I went to fetch my sister with my mum and my eldest sister, the provision shop near my house is closing down tomorrow hence, today is the closing down sale. The things are very cheap too. Anyway, I realized that I really hate holidays in some ways. First, I eat too much and you will definitely know the consequences of it. Second, I get very bored at home nothing to do. Third, I tend to forget things easily. It is because I am getting old? .16 years of my life studying had past. Now, I felt that everything is full speed ahead. I have to get ready for orientation ,school, more stress, project works and many more but I have not prepare myself for it yet.

I watched Avatar in the morning because I was bored and don't know what to do and this is the second time I watched the movie and I enjoyed it every time I watched it. Now, I am really rotting at home. everyday I do the same things over and over again. it as if I am a machine. I have and thought of any title for this post yet. Oh ya... nanyang polytechnic called me yesterday reminding me that I have to attend my orientation on the 6-8April which is three days . I think it is unfair because the other courses only have their orientation for one or two days... Nothing much really happened today... My life is boring...

Woke up at 6.30, brought sister to school then went to The Great Eastern Centre as my sister need to claim her prize which is, an iPad, 16GB. Now, iPad 2 is coming up and there are many more on the way. One day there would be a hologram invention or tele-transporter so that we can travel to different parts of the country or maybe someone would invent a pair of wings and we could fly instead of walk. Technology… anyway what made me worried sick today was my younger sister because she was supposed to come out of the school to meet us for her lunch before she get back in for her remedial but my mum didn't see her anywhere and therefore called me and asked me whether did she called home. When it was time to pick her up I questioned her for the reason and she said that because mummy told her to have her lunch in school that is why she never turn up at the back gate. I was like … There's not much happening expect that my sister got an iPad for FREE! Happy? Upset? Well, I think mixed ...

My mum, sister and I went to Yishun early in the morning today for acupuncture. I am not the one getting it but my sister and my mum. My sister had fallen down and she twisted her ankle. My mum told us that acupuncture was not painful; it was like an ant bite. However, when my sister was having her acupuncture, she was in tears I asked her how many needles was she poked she said only one. But because the physician poke the needle further in which is why it make her in pain. Oh... I also did mention that she had cough, fever and flu because she was coughing in the clinic so badly, that someone offers her a new mask which my sister rejects it. I guessed she don’t want to wear a mask. I do hope she get well soon.

My sister is back from her trip to Malaysia and now she is sick. She's having a cough, flu and is running a high fever and because of this, she fell down on her way back yesterday which was pretty bad. We brought her to see a doctor in the morning and I hope she get well soon. A few months ago, my sister kept asking me to vote for her in her pledge because she wanted to get an iPad and now she got it! Do I feel happy for her? Jealous? well... I'm not very sure I think it could be the latter one... iPad... Does it feel good to own an iPad? I just hope that she could lend me to play with it.

Yes!!! Finally, I've changed my blog skin :) I am soooo happy with the result. I spent the whole morning to change it. At first I was very disappointed because when I complete all the editing, the preview was very bad, the post was overlapping the profile etc. That's where I get very mad and try to search for other skins. After searching for so long, I can't find another one which I like because I have quite high expectation for the blog skins. I'm a very choosy person you see... But I did not give up the previous blog skins I tried very way to save it. Finally I decided to try it on my other blogs, save the template and see the result. To my surprise, it was totally in order. I was very shocked at that time because the preview turned out bad but when I saved it and view the blog, it turned out well, it was in order. I am vey satisfied with the work, I spent lots of time doing it. I was in seventh heaven when I saw the result of the work. By the way my sister will be ba...

I have something to announce... I BROKE MY NAIL! By the way who cares right? I was hand washing the clothes and I mean lots of clothes when my nail broke. I kept my nails long for months and now one of them broke, it's just look weird one of it is short while the rest are long. Argh! Never mind my nail would grow back. My mum and I went to the temple as it was "guan yin dan" which is the "guan yin" birthday. The temple was very huge. After that we went to AMK hub. I realize that I have been pronouncing some word the wrong way. For example MRT, when you said it fast it sounds like "M ma T" I didn't pronounce the R sound. I asked my mum to repeat the word MRT many times and its M ma T. It's very weird ... I just can't get the R right but because I kept telling my mum to repeat the word MRT, the next thing I asked where we are heading to she replied M ma T which is not the place we want to go. We are supposed to go to FairPrice Xtra and becaus...

I'M TOTALLY PISS-OFF!!!!

I woke up at 5 plus in the morning today because my eldest sister is travelling to Malaysia and I need to say goodbye to her. She would be coming back on Friday.Five days is consider very long and everytime she comes back,she would either suffer from injuries or fall sick. Today I argue with my youngest sister and now we are having a cold war I don't talk to her and she won't talk to me. I know that I should not argue with her because after all she is my sister and sisters should not fight and end up with a cold war. I hope my tommorow would be better.

Rencently,I have been doing nothing at home and this is kind of boring.Just a few days ago,my family went to the IT show and it was very crowded.Most of the time I have to squeeze my way through. When I got there, my eye kept twitching as if something might happen anytime. To my surprised, I saw LiQin. I was shocked and happy I thought that we will never be able to see each other. Haha. I have to go now to help my mum .

I am working in the NTUC as a cashier now and I am very happy as I finally found a job! I was not doing cashier at first but some kind of packer and moving boxes of goods from places to places which is very tiring as I have to consistently bend down and get up which is why my back hurts today. I wanted to change to cashier and I managed to do it! It was really fun because I once picture myself doing that and I never thought that it would turn into reality! However, I need to handle the money carefully. That's important! I work as a cashier today and I find it fun and tiring. 'O' Levels result coming out soon and I am really getting very nervous about it.

Yesterday was the first day of school and my sister wasn't really excited about it because most of her friends were not in the same class as her. After bringing her to school, my mum, eldest sister and I went for a walk in the park. My sister and I packed our bedroom yesterday. The reason? Because there are a whole lots of books and papers on the floor and it was very messy. My parents kept complaining about it long ago and we managed to pack some of the places only because we were chattering away. It was tiring tough. Today we went for a walk in the nearby park. After being with my sister for hours, I just found out that she has a sense of humor. The way she act, she talk it will always make me smile and laugh no matter what. I just don't know why. It just happens. And ya, I found a job at the NTUC where I am supposed to move the goods... Well I am not so sure whether I can manage but I do hope to do it well. The 'O' Level results are coming out in less than a week and...