Depressed for no good reasons?

It may not seems like a big deal to you but it is to me...
Yes I get it, it's a small percentage but if you were to put yourself into my shoes you know what it feels like. Yes I understand that all of you can get over it but I'm different, I'm not like everyone else, I need time I need courage I need strength to pull through. Just because of this small thing I can't let it go? It's not only this that I'm upset, depressed. It's because I failed as a friend to all of you, if I wasn't in the group all of you will be happy and none of you will have to cope with any of my bullshits or nonsense isn't that great? It hurts me a lot when I lose any of my friends but if leaving the group is the right choice to everyone happiness why not? :'( it even hurts me to write all of these bullshits out, crying and tearing. Do you even think I like doing all these? I know that all of you will be affected and I'm trying to hold back my tears until I wasn't able to hold it. I don't like what I am right now. What I wrote might hurt or angered most of you reading this but ya, these are my thoughts. And yes I'll be one of the ******* that will push the bell curve up so don't worry.

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