Start of Something new!

It's officially the start the new term, new semester. A new University life! It has been four days for me now  (No lessons on Monday) Well.... I can say that I can feel the tension in every class... Especially the participation marks. All of us are hungry for the participation marks! Well... I'm also hungry for it but I do not know how to participate... Got some encouragement from some of my friends, some told me to speak up more because the marks can really affect the grades..

I wanted to go all out for it but seriously, the class was... an eye-opener!! Basically everyone was just debating in class! That's how it's like. I can feel the stress-ness, tension and also the competition!!!

Guess I will have to, no matter what adapt to this from now on.... Gosh!!! I'm not sure if I'm able to make it through.... It's seems kind of easy when your seniors tell you to talk and participate in class BUT when you are actually in the class, things are different. The perspective of how your dream class would be completed changed.

Competition is everywhere! You don't try, that's it! You have lost your chance! Man!! How I wish I could just speak up directly in class... But I just do not have the courage to do so. You know some of us do experience this kind of feeling where you would want to contribute but then afraid to? but when others asked what are you afraid off, you basically just do not know the reasons for it, you just can't explained it..

But I am really truly blessed to have a 老爸 that encourages me. I’m really thankful that I met him during the NDP training. He's a trainer and he guides us along on the marching perfecting us in every way possible. I had breakfast with him today and he drove me to the mall to have breakfast, talk about life and drove me to school! Really am very thankful for everything!!! He shares stories with us and I felt that there is so much I need to learn from him! Such a good father!! Always looking forward to meet him every time!! There's so much to share!!

To end off my long stories that I have "Summarised", I really hope that I can overcome my fear of participating in class. I want to score in the participating marks. I need to start to participate in class form next week onwards! Fighting!!!!